wow i never post anymore!

sorry guys...i dont even know what to say...ummm... i dont think anything is new? my hair is likely longer...and im a couple months older since the last post... ummm... haha but i think thats it! im mostly just doing this for luke... poor guy says he checks but there is never anything here. well now there is and its all for you pal...the only person who ever reads my blogs! i wish i were more important and had better things to say...but i dont. perhaps later ill write you a poem or something... hmm...maybe something about tree toads...or road flares....or song birds...never know really. i think the moral of the story is i am borring. oh wait...thats sort of lies. i have been goign for walks in the most beautiful place near where i live! its fantastic and the sun sets are sexy. so i will post photos of that eventually. oh annnd i had a date with jenna little last week...fantastic! and i do believe i have another date with her this thursday! oh how i do love that beautiful ray of sunshine! :D no dates with boys though...whats wrong with them? they should prolly ask me out...i might say yes! so for now i will bid you farewell, and i will be eagerly awaiting a comment on this post...very eagerly! haha i love whoever reads this! oh and speaking of love...i have now developed a habbit of making a heart with my hands...you shoudl try it, it makes any day grand! so to finish up i would like to remind you to never spay or neuter your pets, puppies and kitties are cute! ha xo

ohhh and ps my mom has a dog, and he name is micki and she is a cavalier king charles spaniel...you know...the kind with the long pretty ears...i'll post pictures later! hugs!

no news

so its been 2 months...i dont think much is new though....my brother's gf got a bunny....and it lives at my parents house...thats about it. i continue to make terrible decisoins, and to like boys who will never like me back. i dont fit in at work...some people are even mean to me because i am not smart. i miss home a lot..though it is nice having my own place sometimes. i had a birthday, got older...that sucks. i dont think i have much else to say. i hope things are well with all of you.

hey luke, this one is dedicated to you as well!

ok so i am working at minacs and i love it! i have a new apartment and i love that too! though it gets a little sad being alone...no big deal i guess. life is pretty grand for me right now, i hope all of you are doing well too! i have been busy busy busy busy cleaning and putting stuff away! i have been decorating a bit, but its still not very christmassy in there. i'll get my tree next weekend and that will give me smiles:P i love you guys!

changed my mind

ok so i decided to instead, accept a job at minacs. so i'll be working starting next monday, 4 weeks of training 9- 5 and then my shifts start. still need a place so pray please.

i've been told to update:P

shmoo dedicates this to her favourite nephew.

ok so, i got a job at teleperformance! yay! i start training on monday. my shift is midnight until 8 am. im preatty excited. though i am extra terrified because i will be living by myself...and im going to miss my family...and i never wanted to leave home until i was married, which clearly i am not. so im super super scared, while being super excited. i appreciate your prayers big time!!!! i still have interviews with other place so...yeah you never know, but yeah pray pray pray for me please!!! i think thats all that was new with me...oh if anyone knows of a place for me to live let me know!!! i need an apartment!!! love you guys! xo

She cries late at night, when she knows no one will hear. She sobs silently as she lives out all her fears. Her heart is breaking rapidly and she knows that no one cares. Her dreams are being shattered as her future disappears. She needs someone to hold her, to tell her every thing’s alright. She knows that no one loves her, but she smiles out of spite. She just lives pretending she’s ok. Ignores their evil looks, makes it through another day. Night falls and the tears come once again. Oh how she longs for the day when her smile is not pretend.

stolen from sarah babineau.

the following post was stolen directly off of the blog of sarah babineau, word for word, stolen. she had some amazing things to say, and so i stole the whole thing and posted it on my blog. thank you to sarah babineau for your words of wisdom, and the scripture. perhaps comming from the mouth of someone so sweet, the words will mean more than comming from me, because you may not be able to see past my scarlet A. her link is on my page if you would like to read her blog, though she hasn't updated in 600000 years, perhaps you could encourage her!



"Romans 2:1-11Therefore you have no excuse, everyone * of you who passes judgment, for in that which you judge another, you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things. And we know that the judgment of God rightly * falls upon those who practice such things. But do you suppose this, O man, when you pass judgment on those who practice such things and do the same yourself, that you will escape the judgment of God ? Or do you think lightly of the riches of His kindness and tolerance and patience, not knowing that the kindness of God leads you to repentance ? But because of your stubbornness and unrepentant heart you are storing up wrath for yourself in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God, who WILL RENDER TO EACH PERSON ACCORDING TO HIS DEEDS: to those who by perseverance in doing good seek for glory and honor and immortality, eternal life; but to those who are selfishly ambitious and do not obey the truth, but obey unrighteousness, wrath and indignation. There will be tribulation and distress for every soul of man who does evil, of the Jew first and also of the Greek, but glory and honor and peace to everyone who does good, to the Jew first and also to the Greek. For there is no partiality with God.

Ok so, I am sure we have all read this at some point in time. Verse 4ish stood out to me though.

2:4Or do you think lightly of the riches of His kindness and tolerance and patience, not knowing that the kindness of God leads you to repentance ?

how often do we take what God did for us for granted. and does our knowledge lead us to repentance? I know I have a couple of unresolved things I haven't brought up yet, I mean sin is fun right? It is a lot easier to just sit back and play with it and ignore what we know to be true. Unfortunately as we put off repenting sometimes we forget about the sin, it becomes natural and comfortable to us and we become calloused and cold. So what happens?

2:5But because of your stubbornness and unrepentant heart you are storing up wrath for yourself in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God, (2:6) who WILL RENDER TO EACH PERSON ACCORDING TO HIS DEEDS:

I didn't put the caps on it there... it came off of crosswalk like that. Lately - and really most of the time - I know what kind of marks and comments I am going to be getting off of my papers. The will tell me I am a horrible commaer and I have problems with sentence length. There are also little stuff here and there that I will know about but do not fix because I either do not know how to or, I don't have the time to. So I don't fix them and I get marked accordingly. Sometimes my spiritual life is like that too. I usually forget about the storing up part but it is no different than my papers - just on a larger and more important scale.

2:7to those who by perseverance in doing good seek for glory and honor and immortality, eternal life;

Perseverance. It kinda reminds me of training for the OUAs. We had a whole lot of exercise in a small period of time and had to train to get our endurance levels up. Then we carb loaded. Still at the end of the day I was spent and had to sit out for part of it and let our alternate take a turn. It is hard work. It is work. I don't like working, it is so much easier to let life happen to you - much more than happening to life. Perseverance is not just standing during a storm, it is moving through it.

2:8but to those who are selfishly ambitious and do not obey the truth, but obey unrighteousness, wrath and indignation.

'nuff said.this one was long, but it hasn't happened and I have been lazy lately. Obey the truth."